Bah-humbug.

Yeah, so it's been a while. As the saying goes, "You've got to put your past in your behind."

Errr... maybe that's not quite it.

I don't quite know where to start, so I guess since it's December 19th, there's no time like the present to bitch about Christmas. :-)

I remember when Christmas was easy. All the excitement. Would I get that big gift I ask for? Would my mom be surprised? Would my dad be able to come to Christmas? Would my grandparents still be using the same silver and gold wrapping paper they had been using for my entire life?

Now it's all about stressing about having any money to buy gifts, cleaning the house, figuring out what to serve all these people for dinner, getting laundry done. But then again, there's always laundry to do. I believe I'm now on my third year of intending to send Christmas cards without actually doing it (Sorry everybody).

I know I'm just stressed right now, but I have to wonder: will I ever feel excited about holidays again? Or will holidays become like snow-- beautiful in theory, but a massive pain in the ass in practice?

Really all I want to do is go back to the Christmas Eves of years past when I stayed up all night wrapping presents and watching the endless loop of "A Christmas Story" on TBS.